Gestures
I know you can’t see these but I hope you are still here looking over me. I’m in pain dad. It’s a silent pain. I’m gonna start doing everything you used to love. I’m gonna go get my hunting license finally. I know you’ve always wanted me to come out with you but at the time I never really wanted to hurt animals for even just food. But I see there is a euphoric feeling you get out of it that’s why you loved it. I’m stepping up everything from now on. I just want you to always smile at the things I do and not question them. Idk if I’m ever doing anything right but I just wanna do it all for us. You live through me now you dumbass. I love you with everything I have. I don’t like the chest aches I get from thinking about you too much but it’s worth it even if I cry. I’m beat up as you can tell but I’ve been searching for your voice all over.