Merry Christmas Big Dog always thinking about ya! Love you and everyone gives you the best wishes and they say that they love and miss you every day. Miss ya voice sometimes wish you called more just so I could have voicemails but I know how you felt and that you were scared and etc it’s okay trust me I’m not blaming you for anything just rambling. But seriously you got everyone sticking together in their own way thank you for everything you’ve done and keep doing.
I know you can’t see these but I hope you are still here looking over me. I’m in pain dad. It’s a silent pain. I’m gonna start doing everything you used to love. I’m gonna go get my hunting license finally. I know you’ve always wanted me to come out with you but at the time I never really wanted to hurt animals for even just food. But I see there is a euphoric feeling you get out of it that’s why you loved it. I’m stepping up everything from now on. I just want you to always smile at the things I do and not question them. Idk if I’m ever doing anything right but I just wanna do it all for us. You live through me now you dumbass. I love you with everything I have. I don’t like the chest aches I get from thinking about you too much but it’s worth it even if I cry. I’m beat up as you can tell but I’ve been searching for your voice all over.
There was a time in life when you would light a room up, somewhere down the road,the sparkle dimmed and then came when your light burned out. Your time you shared with me and our son was precious. Please continue to look and watch over him. Your, "Hey Buddy" would make people smile. Those BigDog shirts, you sure loved those, fishing camping, your beautiful Son, all this is what we loved watching you Love.
your friend forever, Tam
I love you and miss you more than ever. I bet it’s prime time up there dad. Please never stop watching over me as I continue life on this cruel planet. I love you big dog.
